Feeling Depressed...

So, today I was sick. I hate being sick, cuz I sleep all day and then get filled with this energy that I can't DO anything with, cuz I can't leave my room. On top of that, Daniel and Wendy came over to play games, and I can't play! Also, I don't know what to do about my calling. I keep forgetting to call and do what I should! I feel so guilty, but I just FORGET! I've always lived by: "God doesn't ask about your ability, but about your availability. Then, if you prove your dependability, he will increase your capability." Problem is, I haven't been very dependable, because I feel I'm not capable. It's not procrastination or anything else, I just keep forgetting to do it. I keep thinking of asking to be released, but that would be like giving up and is unacceptable in our family. GAH! Later--Okay, Karen and I found an arrangement and now I successfully fulfill my calling. It's great!

Saturday's Over Already?!

Wow. I can't believe Saturday's over! Man...Now I'm depressed. Wait! Ah, man, I just realized I forgot to do my Relief Society calling. AND Maira and I didn't do our teaching! AAH! I'm a horrible person! HORRIBLE, I tell you!

Talk About Stress!

Whew...Talk about Stress. Well, Grandma and I had a looong talk last night about Colby. We agreed that I should never contact him again (or respond to him contacting me), and that I should be careful for a while. I can't believe I got myself into this mess. I look back at my 16-year-old self and want to scream: "Are you CRAZY?! Getting on a singles site, giving a guy your email, then your name, and finally your CELL PHONE NUMBER?!" I was so stupid.On top of that, I just spent more money than I should have on journals and Crest whitestrips. I also bought a New Testament. I though it had the JST integrated in red, and thought it would be useful for class. WRONG! It's a "more accurate translation" of the New Testament by some company. The part where Jesus says, "Other sheep have I..." instead says, "I have other cities to visit..." Which does not fit in with Mormon doctrine! I feel so cheated! Why do they even HAVE something like that in the Bookstore, anyway?!
Ah, well. Let's see...I went to the Eye Doctor today. He said my eyes were FINALLY fine and finally said we could go ahead and order the rest of the contacts. He started talking about how they would be 170 dollars (we got a discount from 220). I got worried, as our insurance should have paid all but 50. When I went to order them, the receptionist said, "Actually, your insurance will pay all but 12.50 of the cost." What a relief! A year's contacts for 12.50! That's a great deal!

Today after work, Janette came up behind me and scared me half to death! I was concentrating on recording the email address of a person who was selling a violin, bow, case, and rosin for only 60 dollars, when she came and grabbed me! She's sleeping over so she and Andrew can go to IHOP with Grandpa as their prize for winning the Bowl predictions. We watched Red Skelton with Martha Ray. They are soo funny!Well, it's 11:00 now, and I have work tomorrow, so I'll sign off. Happy Groundhog's Day!

IT'S SNOWING!!!

Again. Cool. I just wish it would warm up soon.
So...let's see...It's Wednesday...no, wait, Thursday...Is it Thursday? Hang on...
~goes to check calendar~
So it's Thursday. YES! That means a slow day in CC, hopefully. I've got no homework except for a 1 1/2 page paper on my "born again" experience. The guidelines are pretty confusing. Oh, and I still need to buy my Physical Science book.
I FINALLY made my eye doctor appointment. It's Friday. Yeah.
I have the best voice in all of my vocal class. I'll tell you how I know that when I feel less lethargic.
Why do I feel so blah? Must be the snow. It's pretty, but it's cold and the sky is gray...again. In fact, when has the sky NOT been gray the past month? I am sooo ready for spring.
I need to go buy some Crest whitestrips. My teeth look awful. And some french bread. I LOVE french bread. There is not much better than a few thick pieces of french bread slathered with melted butter. I'm getting hungry...
~checks sig card balance~
Hang on. I'm gonna go get lunch. Grandma packed me some great mashed potatoes, so I need to warm them up. This means I get to fight for microwave time. Happy, happy, joy joy...
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Okay, I'm back. Those potatoes sure are yummy. Mommy and Grandma are such wonderful cooks, I don't know how I'll ever compare. Maybe instead of cooking my potential fiancee a dinner, I'll have Mommy do it. ( just kidding.) Potential fiancee...that has a nice ring. No pun intended. Leslie has a fiancee, and Kara has a serious boyfriend...I have Troy, my dear forgetful almost-boyfriend. He emailed me today saying he got his kidney stones blasted but there was no pain as of yet. I think Saturday I'll take him a get-well gift. He also said he was sorry bowling fell through, and that we need to do it another time. Sigh...
I can't think of anything else to write. If I think of anything, I'll come back and write it.
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